I lost myself

This kind of life has numbed me because I can't see a future. Every day is spent aimlessly living like this.
Every day is spent doing laundry, cooking, cleaning, taking the kids to and from school, and then helping them with their homework. Even just talking about it makes me feel tired, but I have to repeat these things every day.
Many times I don't want to feel like a spinning top, endlessly rotating without purpose. So, I try to find something to do. I try to squeeze in some time to do small part-time jobs, like cross-stitch. But I'm still unhappy! I don't know
if other people's lives are happy, but in my eyes, everyone else's life seems happy, while mine is meaningless. I've lost myself.